He wants children...

Yesterday at lunch a man with his daughter on his shoulders sat next to us. She was so sweet, in jeans and a pink top, her face was do dirty you can tell that dad had her all morning. He was so gentle with her. I turned to sweater and asked " Do you want to make your grandmother a great grandmother?" and to my surprise he said "Yeah some day but you want to adopt". I'm not sure what it was about this father daughter combo that made me ask this question. And when he answered I knew that one day he's going to leave me.

I know that I don't want to give birth. Ever. I know it sounds weird and maybe even awful but i think it's gross. Also it's not good for my health. I wouldn't mind giving up a few eggs and having a surrogate to give him a child, a real Steinmetz.  Surely his family would love that. Let's face it No one else his going to give his parents grandchildren. We are the only hope.

Today at lunch we talked about kids again I was firm that I didn't want children, not my own at least but if he wanted kids so bad I'd have one in 8 years. Take it or leave it. Lol

I asked him if his family would love an adopted child, he said "yes" but from conversations I've had with his mother I know she wants a grandchild from her son.

We've been together for almost four years now maybe time will be up soon.